hey Dalia-thanks for the idea-but no the strange thing about it that my parents are nice. way too nice. there were times i thought i didn`t deserve all they gave me. i am 1 daughter in the family. 1 kid. and i am very loved and respected and allowed to do all i want. really all. the buy and give me all i want.

i don`t know. am i SPOILT?? i really hate spoilt people who whine all the time and don`t want to deal with life and am not this way!
almost every time my Dad asks me to do something and he does so VERY ordinary way-not disrespect-the thing itself birngs in the fury. basically - even if he tells me to mop the fury-and EVEN IF I PLAN TO DO IT- i am angry. i just hate it being told to do it. and there are thing that don`t interest me like the news, money..(since right now i have no problem with it, thanks God) and such %#@&#!. but i KNOW that it IS important and thath makes me sometimes feel rediculous about myslef.

you see i am SO "in the clouds" in my inner worlds. i do not have a lot of friends, i do not need to have a job, i hate lintening to the new because the disturb my peace of mind..i know that i am a bit too much there..and when money jobs and such are menitoned i sometimes feel like %#@&#! because i am not independent yet..finansically, but i have no time to be. when i finish studies wih God`s help, i will have a job and become independent.

sorry for this always getting SO %#@&#! LONG
but that`s the bromlem it`s kinda weird....


thaks for the empathy, Fuzzy.