I just wrote a long post in psychotherapy, it didn't go in for some reason - the icing on the cake for my awful day.

maybe it's a good job it didn't go - i was ranting about how i hate banks and i'll have another sleepless night worrying about everything all over again cos nothing was sorted today. we have o change our telephone number because of the bullying calls we are getting we have to tell EVERYONE we know and some others the new number, everything is too much right now i cant cope.
therapy was just a blur I was numb, she said it's because my mind has switched off it cant take any more right now. I told her a really bad memory, a flashback, a couple of dreams and the fact I thought I saw my abuser on Sunday. I felt nothing. I dont understand this.

anyway, i just had to tell whoever is interested. sorry.

jin

I hate this life today i hate it. If someone is born everytime someone dies I wish someone worthwhile would take my place.