Got my meds.refilled today with no problems with Medicaid.
My therapy appointment went well, no lectures, showed her my journal entries, and one of them I wrote about how I feel like this world is fake, and doesn't exist, and how I don't exist, and apparently I described in my own words the concept of the Matrix movies, which I've never really seen before, but apparently I feel like I'm living in the Matrix according to my writings. Seriously though I do feel like I'm not even a real person and I don't exist, and this whole world is fake and doesn't exist, and that I'm just watching a movie of life playing out Infront of me. Whenever I get these thoughts/feelings, my heart skips a beat and I become really anxious, which in my miNd is a sign that my thoughts are.true... Idk, it's something I'm going to have to figure out why it's happening and work on, we're also.going to start work on my PTSD symptoms as well as DBT skills. Hell I even feel like my cat isn't even real, as I pet him, and I'm starting to believe that my Grandpa who just passed wasn't even real and that he was just a figment of my imagination...Ugh, wtf, stupid brain...