I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow, thankfully. I don't know if this is a mixed episode though...it doesn't seem 'bad enough.' And I'm sleeping normally (unlike last time). I notice that I get waves/flashes of 'hypomanic thinking' (I know! I'll open a bar! an art gallery! I'll save the neighborhood!) and then the same with 'depressive thinking' (nothing matters, everyone hates me, I don't care if I die, etc.) - just back and forth all day. I think that's why I can't even tell what mood I'm in, or if this even is a 'mood' or my personality :/

I plan to start a mood stabilizer but am going backpacking for a month so am postponing until I get back...hope I can make it out there.