thank you both for your replies... what you said Alison is what i have been doing... i wrote down all the good things about this person, because that is what i want to remember them by. yes i think i am still grieving... and just like any other loss i have had in the past.. i know i will get over it...they do say time is the best healer. i do have a wonderful family and other good friends..so I KNOW I NEED TO FOCUS ON THAT... and not go back to the PAST....

thanks again