When I am depressed, I stay on the couch all day and eat sweets whenever possible. Those are the things I first notice when becoming depressed and that is where most of my time is spent.
When I am manic, I begin to have irrational thoughts. If they go unnoticed, they lead to some serious grandiosity. I also catch myself driving 25 miles over the speed limit on the expressway all the while blaring the song of the month. I also dance like an ignorant fool as though I am on psychedelics. I pace incessantly; sometimes someone has to point it out because I don't realize I'm doing it.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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