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Old Jul 28, 2016, 10:23 PM
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I was diagnosed with MDD at 14. The only trigger I know is that I had switched from a small school (about 19 people) with people I had known since first grade to a performing arts high school that had about 350 people. I was completely culture shocked.

That said, the episode was explosive. I started having to leave school fairly often because of my delusions and fears (ie: that my geometry teacher was an alien). I was a complete mess and the antidepressant I was given caused me to become manic. And that mania, when it showed up, was completely bizarre. I was outside at 11 PM doing cartwheels and I'm fairly certain my mom was afraid I would attempt to fly. I tried other antidepressants and it wasn't until I found a new psychiatrist (at 15) who accurately diagnosed me that they knew what to look for. I acted out frequently. I would regularly leave my geometry class and hide in the bathroom.

I also was leaving school, or melting down, or behaving irrationally so often that my parents pulled me out my sophomore year and I did a "home hospital" type of home schooling. I spent the rest of my high school career at a school that incorporated both "regular" students and those with disabilities. There, I could interrupt class by singing I Got Friends in Low Places and have it received with uproarious laughter and singing along instead of being disciplined.

I feel extremely blessed that they found it when I was a teen despite having such disbelief over several years.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now

Tori Amos ~ Crucify

Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder