The Skeezyks has a whole laundry list of things that happened when he was young that may or may not have caused him to end up being the toxic mess he turned out to be. It's all a ball of twisted wire that will never be unsnarled now. I've toyed with the idea of posting a Thread with regard to some of it. But I seldom post my own Threads. Besides, what difference would it make. It's all just what it is... I hope you are finding a way to make peace with yours...