Hello everyone,

I will start with I have been sick for a few years now. My issues are very complex but one of the most troubling of my condition is the intrusive thoughts. Since I have been unwell I dated someone about 6 months ago for around 1 year which made my condition much worse. He emotionally abused me and was just a sick perverted individual. He was addicted to pornography and would use me for sex and constantly say vulgar sexual things to me. I was too weak at the time to break free but I finally did putting a restraining order on him.

The intrusive thoughts are still there now at such a high intensity I am already suicidal but feel even more so because of the relationship with him. I have horrible thoughts constantly about him that I don't want to even repeat because they are so violent and disturbing. I feel like a psychopath. What do I do? I have tried every medication out nothing helps. I have tried counseling psychotherapy. I am on medication at the moment Seroquel, lamictal, zolpiclone for sleep.

I am put off men now also because I think they are all like him and just the trauma of the relationship has me so disturbed. I don't think anyone can help