((((((sweet))))))
I totally get what you mean about not beginning with another T right away. You need some time in between, to honor and process your loss. But I worry about what support you will have, as I know you have a lot on your plate.
Could you join some sort of a support group in the meantime? I mean IRL (LOL). Also, get some names from T for when you are ready or in a crisis!
Hugs to you.
Take care.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxooxox