Haha it's okay, not sure what you're sorry for.

I think what I experienced last year might have been a mixed episode - I didn't know much about it before but your post got me to read about it. Maybe that's why my mood was not coherent, at times it was euphoric and at times it was depressive but I still had a lot of energy. I used to pace in my room for hours without stopping, constantly, well, talking to myself, discussing stuff. Sometimes 4 or 5 hours would pass that way without me noticing the time. Sometimes I had so much energy I would go out and walk aimlessly (fortunately, just thinking to myself when outside, although I had to force myself not to talk), even at night.
It was an emotional rollercoaster - euphoria, feeling amazing, talking to absolutely everyone, starting ambitious projects that I woudln't finish.
And then overwhelming sadness, but still racing mind, can't stop pondering my problems (real and imaginary), can't sit still, crying myself to sleep.
I'd say it was about 30 % euphoria, 70 % depression, with more euphoria initially and more depression as time went on, for 4 months until finally I came back to mild depression.

I lost a friend because of it, as he was convined I was taking drugs and he doesn't tolerate that. I didn't know I was ill and I stupidly kept telling him how amazing I feel every time I was euphoric, and he just wouldn't buy "I don't know why it happens".
Lost 2 more friends who weren't that close to me, one because of my delusions that I couldn't stop telling him about and the other one because of my erratic, reckless behaviour.
Was really glad to be back to "normal" even if that meant depressed. But you know what - friends that stayed I value far more now, because of the fact they were able to put up with me at my worst, and it means a lot to me.