Hello Meltedmarshmallow: No judgement here. (The Skeezyks has tried this a couple of times too...) However, under the circumstances, clearly you are struggling. While this attempt may not have ended up being that serious, we know that individuals who have attempted suicide are at greater risk of trying again. The next time could be much more traumatic for you. Please reach out for help in real life. If nothing else, you can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1 (800) 273-8255 or text 741-741 for help.