Thank you for your response, however, I disagree. I'm actively working on my life to get better. I do not want to keep feeling badly about myself. This reaction came out of left field. I wish that I felt comforted for having told someone this information, but instead I just feel more afraid, and I am contemplating why that is.

I cannot currently trust anyone enough to make therapy anything but a waste of time and money, but I will continue working on my issues on my own and perhaps that will change enough that I will feel capable of undertaking therapy. Reaching out here for support as I continue to work on my issues is part of that for me. Thank you again!