I could add optimistic, pessimistic, angry, sad, tearful, fearful. Every day seems to bring more opposing emotions. I have a stronger desire to stay married and a firmer resolve to get divorced. I'm afraid to stay married, petrified of divorce. I'm hopeful that I can forge a new path in life with my child if I leave but I'm sad that that I would be leaving behind the other child if I do. I have the worst trepidation of what it will be like to be a family of four except that it may always be better than a family of two.
I haven't changed my "mood icon" in a while--it's still on "rollercoaster"--
I'm just glad I can vent here.