Finally took my meds today after about 7 days without them, almost forgot to.take them, but t I took them. Have my Grandpas memorial service tomorrow afternoon, not really looking forward to it, really worried there's going to be a fight between my Mom, Gramdma, and am Aunt amd Uncle of mine over my Grandpas ashes and his stuff. My sister was in a car accident today, she's okay, but her car was totaled. And I'm still.feeling like I live in a fake holographic world and nothing, no one and not even myself are real people, just holograms of people and things and figments of my imagination, idk, maybe the meds.will help with this, but I doubt it since whenever I feel this way, my heart skips a beat which tells me it's true, that I live in a holographic world and I'm not a real person...