Thank you so much Waterbear. I just... ugh. I wish my T hadn't set the expectation that there'd be a lot of responses. I was worried that this would happen!

And, I feel like he's dropped me now. We didn't set up another session. I told him that I had had a rough year and was struggling, and... it just feels a bit like there's nowhere for me to go now.

I think I need to call the back-up T that we talked about. But, I was really hoping that my T would call in advance and make sure she was up to seeing me, accepting new clients, and could give her enough of a history to help her get started with me (without the checklist). But I don't think that's going to happen.

I don't even know if she'd be a good match for me, but I guess I can't know until I meet her.

Ugh, I'm exhausted... and my AC is creating a bad smell. I turned it off, but now it's too hot. And, I called the AC people SIX WEEKS AGO and haven't gotten a response.

I don't get why things are so hard? These don't seem like they should be the difficult things in life... you know?

Thanks.