23 (female),

I'm dealing with a very toxic family, they always break me down, always hold me back, always bring up my downfalls, and get mad at me when ever I try to do something good for myself. They break me down, bring up the fact that I have no friends, and no one will ever like me and that I'm nothing like the rest.

& I've been depressed my whole life because of it. I'm moving to North Carolina with my aunt and uncle in about 2 weeks. I'm just so scared of getting my life together. I'm afraid to feel, I'm afraid to do normal things and feel good about myself. I was called ugly by my family, all the time. But people also called me pretty often too! The kids in school also called me ugly too. Therefore, I was confused on how to feel about myself.

I just always grew up obsessing over what people were thinking about me. & I think of my future and think of how I want kids, friends, and a career and just create a life for myself. And I think about how they will laugh at me and try to down me for wanting and one day having those things?

Does this make me crazy? How do I stop thinking about this and move on?