The law of gravity is a well-known law.

At certain altitudes, what goes up, must come down. Hopefully, it comes down with ease, with grace and under some kind of control.

I am trying to figure out just how to share what I am going through.

You see, I lost several family members in a plane crash, many years ago now.
One adult taking three children on a trip. Everyone was so excited. I was supposed to go, too, yet backed out at the last moment (for some reason).

It's been many years and still -- I remember details of the whole nightmarish event, at least annually, at anniversary time.

It's anniversary time.

My primary psych diagnosis is C-PTSD, which I have lived with for, seemingly, a lifetime. This event was one of the saddest days of my life. Then there's the rest of the story, secondary psych diagnoses -- and lots of primary co-occurring autoimmune and/or other conditions which involve severe chronic pain (with notable nerve/tissue damage).

I am not sure of where to post. Yet, this is the sub-forum in which I am most active and I feel like many of my contacts are also active in this forum, so I hope it's okay to post this here.

I have been doing better for a couple of weeks, after a rather nasty mixed episode. Yet, I have been getting very depressed again this past week as memories surface. It's an annual event, this anniversary stuff. Some years are better than others.

This year is not the best, nor the worst. I am feeling it, for sure.
I am having a hard time just sharing this much today.

Please remember we are never guaranteed to see our loved ones again, we may never know when it's the last time we see them. Show your love to those you love, as often as possible.

May we help to heal one another's hearts.

My love and gratitude to each of you.



Wild Coyote