I'm so sorry you are going through this, WC.
Anniversaries can be so hard. Do you feel that the looking for new information is therapeutic for you? (I can't say I wouldn't do this too, but I'd also wonder if it might be poking a bear with a stick.) Are you seeing a therapist? (Sorry if I've missed that elsewhere.)

It is important to treasure our loved ones while we may. Thank you for that reminder.

May you come through this time as smoothly as possible. Be gentle with yourself. Sending much