It can be very tough to attend to this topic with paperwork, to see our own symptoms, diagnoses, etc.
It sounds like it's raising your anxiety today?
I agree. If your last therapist was timid, it's best she dropped out and it is more a reflection of her perception of her own limitations. Nothing to do with you.
I hope your paper work is done and you can "change channels?"
How about some music or something else you enjoy and a total change in where you have your focus?
I have been working on this same thing for the afternoon/evening -- changing my focus and my mood.
I'd LOVE to have some fun before the day is done and it's up to me to create my own fun!

WC