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Originally Posted by awkwardlyyours
That sounds awful, JD. I'm so sorry..... 
I'm the last person to tell anyone to remain with their therapists (I'm in the midst of leaving mine myself for someone who hopefully seems a much better fit).
But, from what I've read of your posts, your T sounds really cool and attuned to you? I wonder if it's partly that he isn't getting what an awful space you're in? As in, you appear to be "functional" and so, he doesn't really get how much more support you might need?
I don't know what else to say except the rather cliched advice that everyone gets to perhaps talk it out? From your posts, it's sounded like what you have with your T is something truly rare -- I wonder then if you could imagine creating that same connection with another T or just going therapy-less? I don't know what your situation feels like to you but would either of those possibilities seem palatable to you?
Any way, do take care.... |
thank you, ive been thinking of taking a break or just leaving altogether. i havent mentioned this to him. also i am aware that all of this might just be my tunnel vision when i get depressed... in which i only see the bad things and ignore the good. my T is really cool and we work well together. honestly the thought of leaving him is painful. he has helped me immensely... if you all saw me 6 years ago i would be unrecognizable.
i think some of it is my paternal transference for him and realizing he is just a T, just another person...and he has his own children and family that i am not part of. i dont have many friends and only my mom and (mentally ill)sister as family. so i ampretty isolated. it feels really pathetic that the only person i really talk to during the week is my T.
it might also be my patterns too... of realizing how i care for someone and it hits me like a ton of bricks that it is impermanent (like everything is) so i avoid avoid avoid and try to back away and fade into the background