Wow. I've been aware of the negative influence my mother has on me still and I'm nearing 50! This is ridiculous. It sucks that I waited this long to do it, but I have to now guide and take control of our conversations.

She is one of the most negative infuences in my life and if she were an acquaintenence I would cut her off and not look back. But she's dear old mom. The mother of all anxiety!

Today I called to tell her some quick, really good news, and I realized she has a total method of taking control of the conversation before I can complete a sentence. Then she'll get bits of my story and digress into something horrible she saw on the news!!! It almost ruined my day. I just wanted to tell someone some good news. That I was having my first really really good day in, I kid you not, in maybe like 8 months.

My life has been a whirlwind of chaos for a while, overlapping events, most of which I had NO control over. But it's over. I'm in a really really good place. I have a few things I'm waiting to happen in my life that will be the icing on the cake.

Waiting is the hardest thing in the world, ever, ever, ever! I hate waiting!!!!

Anyway, all of it, everything above, for tonight, let's just blame it all on my crazy mom. She really did a number on me.