I don't know why starting this new project is causing me so much anxiety. It's just a hobby, after all. It's not like it's for a job. It feels like my mind is not set up to try anything new anymore for fear of failure, even though that is only imagined. There's no way I can fail this even though my mind and body seem to think so. And if I can't get over this how in the heck am I ever going to be able to go back to school if I need or want to? And I don't know if Latuda is actually making things worse. I still had this anxiety before switching meds, but not to this degree. It's just frustrating and sad.