Your situation sounds so hard...I really hope things get better soon. Is there anything you can do to distract yourself for a bit? Like take online classes or something you can easily do from home? Not sure what your interests are but awhile back I started to teach myself code and it was really fun and empowering (and you can find tons of classes for free online ). Anything to give you a sense of purpose/focus/structure (if you're not too down)...