Well I knew she was joking, and I don't think she knew about dad's suicide and that was how it happened. It just caught me off guard that she would use that gesture towards someone else. I have seen others do that to themselves just joking when something was driving them crazy. But never have I seen someone do that to someone else. Especially someone who is a T by trade.
After I sent the email to her all these possibilities popped up in my head about how would I feel next time I saw her, would either of us ever be comfortable around each other again? But it went okay. I asked her to not talk to be about and she didn't.