On saturday I felt so bad about myself, that I had to come home and start journaling. The strange thing was, that I didn't journal positive self affirming things, I started really cussing myself out, but whilst that was going on, there was this inner calm inside of me and this feeling of "oh well, there you go" and nothing this inner critic could say was really bothering me.

Since then, I've journaled again and the same kind of stuff has come out but its really a nice feeling. A feeling of, well if this stuff doesn't hurt me, then there is no way that anyone outside of myself can hurt me now.

It felt like this internalised critical remarks we something that I've been afraid to just sit and finally listen to with out trying to change them. It really did feel healing.