I have to ask, how do YOU feel about acting out his rape fantasy? Him wanting you to use your rapist's name sounds...intense. Do you have PTSD from the rape? Has the trauma gone away (don't know how that works).

If acting out this fantasy and being the rape victim you were in your past....well. Is this something you want to explore, too? Or would it be consenual but you're just doing it because it turns him on?

If you'd be doing it just for him, I think you might relive trauma. (I was raped, too, so I can relate on a base level).

I imagine rape fantasies are fine if it's something that's sexually exciting for both parties. It sounds risky if this isn't a turn-on for you.

The fact that he wants you to use your rapist's name is very concerning. That's him getting off on the fact you were raped? I don't know. I think it seems sadistic but I'm a rape victim so I'm just going with how I'd feel.

I don't know if I helped or not. I'm concerned, triggered maybe. That's my issue, not yours. I hope things go well whatever you decide. Dominate-Submissive can be very rewarding. You're submitting based on trust but it's mutual no rape element. But the power exchange is there in a safe way. I couldn't do what he's requesting. I'm triggered so I'll bow out.

Take care.