Even though you said you can't read, maybe if you find books that fascinate you, you can. There have been some books recommended on the Personality Place forum that I and others have found helpful. You can often get them on Amazon as used books and they are not too expensive and they get delivered to your home. The main problem is to find books that are meaningful to you. I have used the local public libraries and just trolled through the biography section and found many books that are good for me.