I'm thankful that I'm still here. Years back, I wasn't so sure I'd be able to continue living. I look back on my darkest times, such as when I was suicidal, and I'm happy I'm now much more determined to keep going (still struggle with the some suicidal thoughts, although they are fleeting and not as intense as they were). I wish I wasn't as self-destructive, but I take note of my improvements along the way, and I use that as a motivator. Although I'm not always able to understand my purpose of being here or know what direction to go in, I believe painful times leads to powerful learning experiences.

A big part of life is learning, and I approach it as being a journey....just another bridge to cross, and we all have to just keep on going. We are not supposed to have all the answers or see the light at the end of the tunnel at all times, but this is something I'm learning to accept and roll with it. Sometimes I feel unloved, but I think that as I work towards accepting myself, I'll be in a better place. I'm glad that even though I've gotten knocked down many times, I keep on going and have motivation to continue doing so.