it's a difficult question for me to answer

not having family to stay alive for or friends, i often wonder why bother.. why bother living from day to day if the only thing you do is struggle, struggle, struggle (that's my life in a nutshell, always 1 struggle after another) and let's not forget- that the reason i started self harming was because i was angry at myself for not even being able to get suicide right (and since that particular attempt i have tried a lot)

the plus side is that it's always nice and a relief to get through another week, and i am proud of myself sometimes for making it to friday