Yes, I feel this way. I'm here for my husband and son. I have had two suicide attempts. One 20 yeras ago and another 8.5 years ago (that one should have been it, but I woke up!). I'm also a recovering alcoholic and my husband and son each say that they know I'm doing EVERYTHING I can possibly do to stay sober and stay alive. I go to AA, see a therapist once a week, and a pdoc every month. I've been on many meds the past year (diagnosed a year ago with BP) trying to find the right cocktail and it's been excruciating on my body. I can't do more than that and I'm glad that they are aware of what I'm doing. My son is a teenager and I was upset with myself the other day because I feel like I've messed so much stuff up and feel guilty that it can affect him. He looked at me with tears in his eyes (he's very stoic, and never shows that level of emotion) and said he knew I was doing everything I could possibly do and that was what was important. So, to answer your question, yes, I'm proud of myself and all of you should be proud of yourselves too! Many hugs!!!