Lost my dad this past week and my anxiety skyrocketed , I want to take the Ativan so badly to help ease my symptoms but I am afraid it will just lead me back to addiction. I am so proud I have been so far able to push through even with all the stress I have right now and really don't want to go backwards but i feel like i am stuck and can't go forward.

Today is hard and I just want to reach for it but I am going to do everything in my power not to.