WHAT IS THE **** WRONG WITH ME ???
I KEEP SEEING **** ( no not actual **** cos thats kinda gross )
MY MIND IS ****ED KEEP GOING FROM ONE THING TO ANOTHER
HINDUISM / BUDDHISM / CHRISTIANITY/ PAGANISM / ISLAM
WHY THE HELL AM NEEDING TO FOLLOW THEM TO MAKE ME A BETTER PERSON
WHY THIS **** GOING IN ****ING CIRCLES DAY AFTER DAY WITH NO ****ING LET UP

I AM DERANGED ****ED UP I PISS MY HUSBAND OFF EVERY ****ING TIME I CHANGE MY MIND WANTING TO FOLLOW SOMETHING THAT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD ABOUT MYSELF WHY THE HELL AM I DOING THIS ****
WTF GET A **** GRIP
I WANT TO FEEL LOVE AND CARE
THE ONLY PERSON WHO DOES THAT WITH ME IS MY HUSBAND AND EVEN THEM AM WORRIED ILL DO SOMETHING BAD THAT HE WILL **** OFF AND ILL BE HERE WITH NO ONE WHO LOVE ME
I DONT WANT TO BE ALONE
MAYBE I SHOULD DIE BEFORE THEN