Hello - anyone remember me? Probably not since i've not been here since like 2004! I've been looking back at my old posts when i was a young 18yr old, how long ago does that feel now. I'm in 4th yr at uni now, and i'd like to think alot wiser and better person because of the experience!

I'm back here though so not everythings changed...annoyingly. I've been battling myself for all these years and generally trying to experience everything that i can in order to get rid of this depression. Its not worked though.

If i'm totally honest i'm just more tired than before. I've lost that eager 18yr old who was willing to try and save herself. Continually going to drs and therapists have worn me out and left me more cynical than ever.

I'm in a very bad place right now. I'm not sure i can keep on battling. My life is a roller coaster ride and i want to get off.