Wow this came out wrong. What I mean in the second paragraph was:

"I feel like this because I believe is what my mother must have felt about me with my problems."

So, I was pissed off about it but now I'm more tranquil. Calmer. I didn't hurt my dog, if you are wondering. But even right now I can say I feel fine about wasting my money with this breed. Or that, right as I think about it, after talking to my mother she is going to rewire the money I just spend tomorrow. Wow. I feel like a whiny brat right now as I'm writing.

Why did I tell her this?
How did she react about this situation?
Does she think I just complained to her right now to squeeze 665?

Gods, I just... I can't win, for what I see.

haaaaah