from what i have read and i am not a dr. it sounds like bipolar there are several types of bp. the money thing the sex thing i totaly understand i wentr throught the rage stage in my early 20's-25. i have three kids and i know what its like to wake up and feel like i could just sleep and don;t want to get out of bed no motivation. yet i love my children with all of my heart it wasn't them it was me. i relate to the figures that you have see when i was younger i lived with my parents the was theis "man" figure in the house it ran through my room and down the hall i called thre police it was that real the neighbor came over with his gun to check things out before the police got there. to this day i still see things that shouldn't be there. all this to say do you have a dr? you need a dr to get meds to help you you will feel more alive more vibrant have motivation with the right combo of meds. i hate taking that handfull of meds but i do it for my family they matter and i matter enough( most the time ) to take them. good luck contact me any time we have alot in common.-onyx