:/ plus I feel a lot resentment that she blamed me and Daniela for never leaving dad which is stupid and I honestly don't want someone that blames me for everything. Plus Daniela doesn't hear the insults only sees her good side so to her it appears as if everything is perfect with mum and I am just an abusive *****. Also this situation with mum has completely ruined motherhood filled me with a lot of resentment and disgust towards it. I just want to throw every child and baby in the bin...