Okay, so here I am in the middle of my weekend. I am trying to understand the whole Jane is gone thing but of course that makes no sense. I did errands and came home to bed for the most part and have been wool sculpting most of the day. Back is tricky. How can I know that my Jane is dead? I really don't get it at all because when I am thinking about stuff she comes into my mind and I want to speak with her and then I remember. I am lucky, I know that. She was a gift, I know that. Can I understand that she died? I don't understand. How is it so? How is it possible and how will I be okay?