I've been in this strange spot, where I cannot see beyond few weeks ahead. Recently friend asked about my plans for November and I was like "I don't know what will be in November".

It's been a strange summer so far. I should be enjoying my vacation and not having to work, but eh, just more time to think about how the world will end soon. Well, watching the news give me all reasons to think it's over, we ran out of time already and now it's just time to ponder and pray, nothing can be done.

I wish I could be more optimistic, because I have few projects that are unfinnished, in stage of planning... but all other things I done seem to be going nowhere. Well, or seem... not that important.

I guess I need some impulse... some new omens. Hoping I will get that on my upcoming trip... which will hopefully not **** me over emotionally... and hopefully I will be safe. Because these days... one does not know.