i believe i can percieve things other people cant. i have a lot of thought insertion and telepathy problems though.
i believe there is a spiritual battle (good vs evil) but its a paradox because they cant exist without eachother. lik yin and yang.
anyway...once i saw a vision of a demon and realized evil spirits are all around the earth and they try to tempt people and trap them and drag them to hell (being trapped as a spirit (not some inferno) and sometimes they become truly evil, demon just means evil spirit to me). also there are good spirits. some go back into the all or they choose to reincarnate on a soul level. many good spirits go on and they are still here for us to. its all about if you have a good or bad heart.
i feel bad for peopele wh o havebeen tricked and lied to. i am aware of it though. i realized a demon put its essence into my head when i was 13. thats when the deprssion and self harm started.
i need to get this energy out of me and then my spirit will be able to live free. unfortunately the evil spirits dont want that. thats why i have so many obstacles. i see god (the universe) looking over me with the signs everyday that speak meaning to me.
can anyone see where im coming from? im too scared to talk this much with my pdoc about it
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DX: bpd, ocd, gad, schizoaffective depressed type
RX: neurontin, valium, lithium, remeron, vraylar
past RX: geodon, risperdal, abilify, prozac, wellbutrin, baclofen, hydroxyzine, trazadone, zoloft, klonopin, cymbalta, latuda, loxapine, rexulti, seroquel, luvox, saphris
Dont get lost in your pain, know that one day your pain will become your cure ~ Rumi
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