So lately I've been kind of having weird jealously issues. Honestly I'm good at hiding them. Anyway, I know this is a website for mental health, and not relationships, but this does have to do with my mental health. So I'm an all together nice guy. I treat my girlfriend with respect, when we do get into arguments which is hardly ever, I hear her side of things first and am reasonable. I pretty much treat her like a queen. But sometimes I feel like she takes advantage of this..also a while back, she said she had this fantasy about doing it with her only guy friend. He's been her friend for about 4-5 years. At first I was shocked, but I accepted it and we even used it for sex and stuff. Her and I are both very sexually intunned with each other. Anyway, she said she stopped having the fantasy and she told me a fantasy is a fantasy, she'd never act out on them, and my girlfriend doesn't have that reputation of being a cheater. She's very faithful. Anyway, she is in college and needed help with her math and her guy friend is good with that, so she'd go over to his house and he would help her. I didn't really care. I've met him, he's a nice guy and his girlfriend cheated on him so I don't think he'd do that plus he knows about her fantasys and knows I know, but he's a cool guy. Anyway, I don't know, my girlfriend used to dress up for me, put makeup on and stuff to impress me during the first part of our relationship, we've been going on almost 3 years and she doesn't really do that anymore, and I love her with or without makeup, I think she's beautiful either or, and I know it probably means she's comfortable with me, but whenever we see each other, I still take the time to impress her, but she wears sweats or is still in her work clothes. I don't know if I'm insecure or not, maybe it's me. But anyway she was saying how her guy friend was moving and she wanted to see him before he moved. I didn't really see a problem with that. But the thing is, she took a picture on snapchat, and she was all dressed up and everything. She braided her hair, put make up on and everything. And with her eyeliner, she used to put it on the top and bottom, but decided she just wanted to put it on the top, in this picture she had it on the top and bottom. I just don't feel special. She takes the time to get dressed up for him/impress him, but not me. Plus she never says "oh your hot" or "your so attractive" etc. Yet I call her beautiful, gorgeous, I dedicate songs to her, write songs to her, treat her like a queen and it's all genuine. She calls me."cute" sometimes but I feel like a little kid..also now with sex or sexual stuff, I always make the first move, I want to feel like I'm lustful, like she wants me. I don't know, I probably am a needy insecure freak, but I just feel depressed sometimes,as well as insecure and I'm afraid to tell her, about all this because I don't want to look weak or jealous and I don't want her to get angry/defensive. Also I try to avoid fights with her, I don't know why. Anyway I just feel ugly, unwanted, and eh.., yeah that's pretty much it. Sorry for the long story.