Bad headache.

Mother being weird about meds again.

I'm supposed to be taking cogentin twice a day, and I wasn't for awhile because I didn't really care, but these past few days I've been getting some mild akathisia, so I want to start taking it again.

End of the world.

I don't know why it was such an issue. It's not an anxiety med. She seems to have problems with those.

This morning she told me to just deal with my anxiety because everyone gets anxiety and they don't take meds for it.

She has my bottle of cogentin hidden somewhere.

Me: I want to start taking my cogentin again. Please take it out for me. I'm prescribed it twice a day. Mother: But do you need it? Me: Well, I'm prescribed it twice a day. Mother: Oh GIVE ME A BREAK. Me: I don't know why you're giving me problems with this! It says on the bottle twice a day! More fighting. Mostly with her being ridiculous. I start walking away before I say something I regret. Father: Yeah GO TO YOUR ROOM. Me, coming back: I don't understand why you guys are being so mean to me about this. Father: You've been acting weird for awhile. It's always about you. Stop just thinking about yourself.

Mother goes and gets the bottle. Takes just one out for me.

Me: You should just leave it out so I don't have to hassle you to get it for me twice a day.

I go outside for a cigarette. Mom hides the bottle.

I come back in.

Father: So what is that for again? Me: It's for the restlessness I get from haldol. Mother (sarcastic): Well, make sure you take that with food. It says to take with food. Mother: Oh, also it says it expired on july 16th. Me: No it didn't. That's when it was filled.

I leave. I go back out a little later to get some water. Note by the sink, written by my mom (angry scrawl): TAKE WITH FOOD. MAY CAUSE BLURRRED VISION. (And yes, blurred was spelled that way.)

I need to get out of here. Seriously. I can't handle five more months of this. I don't have anywhere to go though. I'm worried if she finds out my gabapentin is for my anxiety she'll take that away too.

So, those are the people I have to deal with! Totally unreasonable! I'm so frustrated. I didn't mean to lose my temper, but I was getting so pissed, and every time I tried to explain things, she'd always have some weird response like she didn't understand me, even if I felt I was making myself perfectly clear.

I'm seriously ready to become homeless and live in a park for the next five months.