No, he was clingy for 11 years, up until last summer. Then he didn't need me anymore, then he didn't love me anymore, then he didn't want me anymore, over the next few months. I was always clingy too, just not as much as him. I still have abandonment issues.

I don't want things to ever be as they were. I want us to be equal. Unfortunately, he only likes my mind. Doesn't accept me as a whole person. Sometimes I t hink I'm too good for him. I never think I'm beneath him. He still has growing up to do if we are to be friends - he has to treat me as the equal that I am.

I never had a life. I had an existence. Like a soldier. I"m so tired of living in the trenches. I'm tired of th is fight. I'm so tired and sick of it. I often feel like I'm just finished.