Are you receiving treatment by a pdoc and therapist? I'm not judging you at all - you seem to be constantly ruminating over men, sex, and your body. These are normal things we should think about....but your numerous threads demonstrate a pattern that you're consumed by it.

You need help with this. I don't know if you have a diagnosis but you need and deserve treatment. I hope you get help soon. I have OCD and I have ruminating thoughts. Meds and therapy help so much. I am not suggesting you have OCD. You need a doctor for a diagnosis.

What do you think?