I am sorry the difficulties continue.

It sounds like your parents have some strong beliefs, some (potential) misunderstandings about meds -- and definitely some misunderstandings about your needs.

I am sure they mean well. Families often have to struggle with the acceptance of illness, just as we do. They are still hoping you don't need meds. This is a major problem! You need your meds!

If you are in the U.S., it may be helpful, in the longer run, for you/your parents to look into the NAMI family education program in your area.

This daily (or hourly) having to debate your need for meds raises your anxiety and is counterproductive to your healing. This situation, as it stands, cannot be good for your self-esteem.

A family meeting is needed as soon as possible. There is potential for everyone coming into agreement once misunderstandings have been cleared up. A third party may be very helpful with reaching an understanding. It's critical an understanding is reached. How else can you heal well in your parents' home?

Much Love and Compassion,
WC