Thank you. Yes I mean she has one child, she is 19 soon to be 20 she wanted to be married around 22 for her at the latest, but that didn't bother me nearly as much as forcing me to move back up to Ohio from Texas to help her with when I simply was unable to as of now because her having me spent in her before moving I had like too dollars left. I now have a job and some means to make money to get a plane ticket and going back to visit until she moved down, but that wasn't good enough and so I'm just here getting my hopes up.

Commitment didn't bother me as much as I got further along and really grew attached to get and no matter how much i proven that to her. She in the end didn't trust me, just because she was insecure then it down wars spiralled into her own mindset of the worst possible situation when I've shown her it's fine. What frustrated me she belu ever I stopped trying when I did not cuddle her every night because I wasn't into her or something idk, but in actuality I've told her many times honestly laying down in bed or anywhere when we do relax after being out doing stuff as a couple with dates it hurts my arms, I lose feeling in my arms after awhile and I have a real medical problem of neurological issues she's seen alot the only person ik other than a few people who know how bad it can immobilize me.
I can't believe when I took her to the hospital when her back went she's crying and hurting alot that she believed I didnt love nor appreciate her around nearing our second month when I was consistent with her.
It frustrated me to no end how no matter what I did she never trusted me.
The biggest thing that distances me from her was feeling I can't even communicate because she believed eveeyone will leave her.

I had no issue with her son or her family. I had no issue what's she been through or who she was. It makes me sad, how I tried and did the best I could and wasn't enough.

I really never felt si happy what I did as I was, being comfortable with someone before this divide of her personal trust issues split us up.

She had a very specific type of mindset she desires in a guy who will love her and take care of her which I could and was able to before having to move, but she needed a guy who like dreams about her and his only fixation is her all day everyday.