Hello & Welcome, Ilovespunky.

You've posted in the right place, and there may be other right places around PsychCentral to post, too (Coping with Emotions?).

Depression, and anxiety for that matter, is a complicated condition that affects people in a variety of ways. The emotional shock and personal paralysis you describe easily fit under the depressive umbrella.

Feel free not to answer: Besides meds, are you receiving any other type of therapy? Has a doctor done a comprehensive medical workup?

Please make yourself at home here.