Today I was at the shops with family and apparently it was my responsibility to watch over the 2year old cousin. My mother was calling me brain dead because I wasn't watching and she ran off lucky my cousin's mother was there and told my mother it wasn't my responsibility. Then Daniela saw a car that the person pushes forward paid like an Euro to put Leonor in was pushing her around in the car she loved it. Then it was my turn to push her around and then we walked into the shop. I took my eyes off of her for a moment and I it was too late to stop her from falling over the handle bars. She started screaming as she fell on her finger it was literally red and swollen for an hour. I felt so horrible and Daniela was saying "why did you take your eye off of her". I literally cried because I was like "imagine if I did that to my child?". My niece comforted me but it does make feel like as severely adhd woman it would literally be a health hazard for me to have a baby. Why can't people with severe mental illness have like free or cheaper contraception. Can you imagine how many children would born with a chance and not addicted to methamphetamine. Yeah, sure there free condoms but what about us woman who can't use latex or don't trust the man to put it on, what do we do fork out thousands of dollars to get sterilized its stupid. It's honestly stupid people like me should NEVER be parents.