Me, AGAIN. Thanks for reading. Not feeling calm anymore. Fragile. Scared?

I'm having trouble distracting myself. I can't focus enough to read. Which stinks, books are my passion. I am unsure about my personal filter as far as the boards. Unlike me. And it's getting depressing reading about how sick we are, but nothing interests me...other stuff on the Web?

I'm not a tv watcher but my boyfriend and I gradually have been watching Lost. Mixed episode started in Colorado and we were watching Losr. I realized the "right" characters were not dying in the order I wanted them to and was mad? Lol

Feel so uncomfortable. I wish I had an escape. I'm usually self-entertained. Way too hot for outside. Whine, whine.

Thanks for reading xo