I’m 35, have Bipolar II and was misdiagnosed with depression for 18 years until 2 years ago. I’m now medicated and in a new city, and very stable.

There were just a few work situations where I was inappropriate with coworkers in my life, but I have been an excellent at my job, building a private practice in a new city with a wait list half of the year. Now that I am on the right meds, I am MORTIFIED by the way I acted before my diagnosis, especially on Facebook. I deleted all social media accounts two years ago due to this. However, on Facebook from 2010-2014, I was terrible. I complained on my newsfeed of people that others knew (never naming names, but it was obvious). I was negative and whined constantly about my life and how others were "treating" me. It was completely inappropriate and immature.

I’ve decided to move home to a better housing market and my much-missed maternal family. However, the decision to move back to my hometown has caused immense anxiety about my past behavior. A few of my former work colleagues and a lot of my high school friends were on my newsfeed. The majority of people I knew stopped talking to me. I can't stop thinking about what others must think of me!

Although I find self employment extremely stressful and would rather find a job in an organization, I'm terrified that I will end up working with someone I have been cruel to or that had observed/heard of how I acted. So I feel forced into starting my own business as a sole practitioner.

How do I deal with this anxiety and what job I choose? Or has anyone been in a similar situation and how did you get through it?